1:40am on a Thursday...

It's currently 1:40 in the morning and I felt pulled to write this... man 2022 has been a freaking year! I've learned so much about myself and about the world honestly. Walking into 2023, I really don't want to set any expectations or resolutions for myself because what's going to happen, will happen. But I do want to say that it is okay to want something different than what you had. It's okay to choose yourself, and/or be alone. It's okay to change your mind and be indecisive. Life literally throws us all curveballs, live it the way you want to. Be happy, be attentive and always be open to growth. Relationships fail - Friendships fail - Expectations fail... the rules are fake, and everyone has their own life to live. Don't let those rules and society make you angry or change who you are, be confident in that person and walk with your head high, always!

I was listening to the Gospel station this morning and they said something that sat with me - "God always forgives you and gives you another chance, so why not give yourself one?" Man does that resonate. Sometimes I tend to be very hard on myself, wondering how I could be different, how I could respond different, but I'm learning to just love who I am and accept those who love me too. One of the biggest things I learned this year is that boundaries mean absolutely nothing if you don't hold yourself to a certain standard within them. If you continue to tolerate things that no longer serve you, you'll never be at peace. And others won't respect your boundaries, and at that point what are they even for? I have been learning that some people truly are for a season and a reason, learn it and keep it pushing!

Don't beat yourself up for making mistakes, or for not always following your morals, it's okay. To grow, you have to learn and to learn, you have to experience. I don't know something on me heavy is just saying to let it go, leave it in the past. What's not for you, will never be for you - stop trying to force it. If it feels wrong, it is. If it feels right, it might be, play it cool. Don't ever limit yourself and always test the waters, you deserve that. Go for every opportunity presented to you. Always put your best foot forward and give yourself grace!

It's okay to forgive those who have hurt you, and to forgive does not mean to forget, but you should not dwell on things you cannot change. I just want 2023 to be a year of growth, of blessings, of happiness and beautiful beginnings. I want to have a healthy lifestyle, a healthy relationship, a healthy set of boundaries, etc. Don't think about what you can do to change other people, instead think about what you can do to change yourself. We are forever evolving, life goes on, literally. Find a way to be at peace, find a way to comfort your own soul, find a way to genuinely be happy with who you are. Life is hard enough, don't add extra weight on your shoulders, if it isn't for you, it just isn't for you, KEEP IT PUSHING. Everything is not for everybody! Find what works for YOU.

I think one thing that scares me is starting over, but I have to learn that it's okay to start over. It's okay to mend my own heart and educate my own mind. It's okay to be scared if you aren't scared it's not big enough. It's okay to literally not be okay, but don't stay there. It's okay to be wrong. It's okay to admit your faults. It's okay to cry. It's okay to be emotional. It's okay to speak up for yourself. Don't ever let anyone tell you how to feel. Always be accountable and never stop trying to be a better person. Let go of the things people say to hurt you because even if they are true, they are exactly that meant to hurt you. Fix the problem and keep going. Never let anyone tell you who you are, or who you can be. Always think BIG and never doubt what you are capable of. It took God six days, SIX DAYS, to create the heavens and the earth... so do you really think the impossible is real? Nothing is impossible, always shoot for the stars!

And, please be patient with yourself, you won't change overnight. Celebrate the small wins too. Always show up for yourself before you expect anyone else to. People follow easily, so give them a reason to. Lead the life you want, and love the life you lead.

I want to end this by saying a few personal affirmations: I am happy. I am healing. I am confident. I am loved. I am worthy. I am the prize. I am powerful. I am the woman God sees me as. I am passionate. I am growing. I am who I am and honestly this is only the beginning, stay strapped in because I am taking over my world! Are you ready?

I want everyone to take time and write their own affirmations. You can leave them below or keep them to yourself, but don't forget what they are. Stay true to them and they'll stay true to you. Signing off, peace and love, Ki 💕